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Today was awesome.
Cross country was well, haha rather uneventful.
It was what we did after that was fun.
HAHA. we had a clique reunion.
So it was just me, Andrea, Geraldine, Casandra,
Annie and Valencia. We went to Vivo and
watched New In Town. HAHA. It was okayyyy.
Kinda cliched plot but it was nice.
Haha. I wanted to watch Slumdog Millionare
buttttt, Geraldine watched it already so we couldn't
be unfair to her. Yeah.
Lol then we spent a lonnggg time wandering
around Vivo. Haha. I ALMOST bought a dress from
Forever 21. Me and Annie was trying to prevent
each other from going shopping. It was hilarious.
lol. So I took mrt back and I had to change to
red line at Dhoby Ghaut. Lol then when I was walking
to the jurong east side, I felt as if I knew someone
there. And I looked to my left and I saw Justin!
Lol. Damn funny. Yeah and we were taking
the exact same way back, obviously, so I had company.
Yay. Haha. What was EVEN funnier was that when
we walked out of Braddell mrt station we were on the road
and suddenly this car stopped beside us and Lizzie Kow
was inside! Lol. It was kinda scaryy. I don't usually
accidentally see so many people that I know.
Yeah. Haha this has been the most free-est day
that I've had since school started. :D

Labels: life

This is my first free night since school started.
I feel GREAT.
HAHA. Anyway, it's cross country tomorrow.
Which I'm not running, cos I got duty. lol.

Special week next week, meaning almost
no lessons at all. haha. I got put into group 1
for the enrichment courses thing.
Which is I Am Gifted So Are You. Lol.
They arranged us by academic results.
HAHA. I'm in the group of under-achievers.
Duhhh.

Omg, I love weekends.

Labels: life, school

Oh no. I have no graph paper.
I can't do my physics homework. Damnit.

I'm gonna sleep.

I feel rejuvenated.

Kinda.

I wanna go and sit in church and
pray and listen to P&W songs. Yay.

Labels: church, life

The full impact didn't come straight away.
In fact I didn't feel anything until I left.
But now that I think about it,
its a subtle form of betrayal.
I trusted you. To understand.
But I suppose, I shouldn't have.
The truth hurts, but its necessary.
I feel cheated.
Honestly, I didn't see it coming.
But I'm not innocent either. Of course not.

Is it wrong to want to see the best in people?
Because that's what I do.
I wouldn't form any impression
based on someone else's opinion.
Because I believe everyone deserves to
have a chance to show the best of themselves.
To be themselves and not have other's
impressions piled on even before the
friendship has formed.
But I suppose, these chances I give
have never benefited me in the end.
I guess some would call me stupid.
Crudely, it would be "See lah, I tell you already
you don't want to believe"
Oh well.

If I had one free day, or even just a free afternoon,
I'd go and sit in church and pray.
I think it need it.
To clear my mind, to make sense of the things
happening around me.

At this point of time,
I'm starting to question myself.
I think God gives me a lesson to learn in everything
that happens to me.
Hopefully I find out what it is this time.
To be honest, I've never encountered this before.

Ignorance is bliss,
denial is a safe haven.

No wonder I haven't started crying yet.

I think my mind has shut it out.
Because when I think of it,
I just feel numb.

I could cry, I suppose.
But it wouldn't make me feel better.
No, it wouldn't

But I miss every moment.
And I want to forget it but remember it all the same.

Damnit, I wish it never happened.
Then I won't be need to look back and feel sad.
Or put myself in denial,
Or stop myself from crying,
Or try to pretend I'm not sad.

Damnit.
Damn you.

Labels: life

And as I wandered past oblivious souls,
a thought caught my mind,
an epiphany so empowering,
I could not deny it,
like I once could with such ease,
and I do not welcome it,
for why would I have attempted,
so greatly to keep it at bay,
if I should accept it now?
But now it proves to be prevalent,
an afterthought tugging at my heart,

I want you back.

Labels: life, poems

I just came back from Beatrice's sweet sixteen!
HAHA. Or what we managed to put together for it.
Haha six of us including her.
Me, Glen, Ivan, Justin, Andrea and the birthday girl
of course. Haha.
I pushed Ivan into the pool successfully.
Haha he DID want to swim.
And he got out of the pool and Andrea pushed him in
again.
Lol, we ended up at the slope near Justin's house
and started camwhoring.
Haha and failed! With a lot of shots.
But it was great.
The best way to end my week ever :D

School kinda sucks now,
I'm really feeling the pressure.
Like way more homework and tests and
ARGH annoyingggg. Homework
all the time. Most of the time I drop
dead before I manage to start.
And I'm so frustrated that I can't keep awake.
Because I can't finish my homework then
I have to chiong it in school and give lame
excuses that obviously the teachers don't
believe and if I tell them I can't keep awake to
finish they'll say its not a valid reason. But
it's the only reason I have and it's genuine.
It piles up and I get in trouble.
Well, I haven't gotten in trouble yet.
But I could. If the teachers don't feel like being nice.
I don't like A math lessons anymore. I miss
miss Chua. Mrs Tan is nice but its very very boring.
And she wonders WHY I fall asleep in her class.

Argh I wanna go comfort shopping.

Labels: life, school

Word for the day: annihilate

You know what's depressing?
Having my hair trimmed by 1 1/2 inches.
That's depressing.
But only because it took me SOOO long to grow it.
I look kinda kiddyish now. Sighhh.
It's still long bu not long enough.
It had a purpose though, my hair has been dropping.
Yes. even more depressing. The hairdresser
thinks that my roots are too weak so the weight
of my long hair was causing the accessive hair loss.
So I'm having some treatment to make my
hair healthy again so I can have my long long long
hair back. Yay. Apparently I don't sleep enough.
Well Duhhhh. Okay anyway.
TD day was on tuesday. Only had sweet potato to eat
so I felt starved by lunch.
I'm getting slck in my eating regime. Damnit.
I'm starting to write a new song (:
I think eyelash curlers are fascinating!

my phone is in badddd condition. Sigh.
I have recently acquired a pet plant. (:
omg and I got an A1 or my E math test!
FINALLY :D :D :D

Labels: life, school

I know what makes me cry,
It's kinda silly but I can't help myself,
It's not romantic movies,
Or weddings, or deathbed scenes,
But it tears at my heart,
And I have to look away,

Labels: life

SO SO.
CREZAWARDS OMGGGG.
It rocked beyond anything.
And I got no regrets in joining AT ALL.
Sui Generis didn't win ):
BUT its okayyyy.
We did great, I really think we did.
It was worth it to experience it with you guys.
I definitely think it'd be worse if we never
tried, cos then we'd always be wondering what if?
So I love you guys!!! SO SO muchhhh :D

Me and Liana (hahaha) got 1st for group vocals (:
HAHA. I was realllllyyyy surprisedddd.
I thought the others were pretty good y'know.
And I was dead tired when I got home but
I was thinking, that I could probably do this for life.
You know, perform and whatnot.
Cos even the tiredness after is a good kind of tiredness.
Like satisfactory and worth it.

Both me and Liana did the same stupid thing
before we showered. We pressed the button
with our PE attire on and got allll wet. LOL.
After the dance I had to run to go and change and
then go backstage again. Lol.
It was brilliant. I loved it.

Anyway, today is Valentines Day.
ANDDDD, I spent it byyyy,
enjoying that I'm single!!!
Lol.

I think that there's a side to me,
that no one really knows. Alot of my personality
is kinda inward. Like I don't voice out my
thoughts much. Which counts or something
because I do a lot of thinking. Yeah.

I need to stop eating unhealthy stuff.
Really.

I've got a headache suddenly.
Damnit, i forgot to ask Joshua something just now.

Labels: life

Crezawards is tomorrow.
AHHHH.
Omg, I really really really hope that,
I DONT SCREW UP.
I wanna sing perfectly,
Play my guitar perfectly,
and dance perfectly.

I'll remember secondary school
for many things.
One of which, will be this.
I can add it to my list of,
Things I Never Thought I Would Do.
Yeah, in primary school,
I never sang, ever.
I only started singing like, in Sec2 maybe?

Haha, Valentines Day this saturday!
LOL, not like I've got a Valentine.
But haha, it's okay. I'll spend it with
my equally single girlfriends. :D
Haha, and we'll enjoy being single.

I got a ton of things to bring for tomorrow.
Two full sets of clothes, towel, soap,
, makeup, face paint, shoes,
plus the normal school stuff.
Need showering stuff cos we don't have time
to go home. LOL.
Yeah. Ok,
I think I'll go write out a checklist now.

I know what makes me cry

Labels: life, school

I tried not to think about it,
But now it's too much for me to ignore

Labels: life

Unit outing was great!
HAHA.
Saturday morning, I woke up at 7am.
I don't really know why lol, since Liana was
only coming over at 9am. Then I played piano
haha, Bella's Lullaby is okkk. Not the most
exciting song out there.
Then Liana came and we practiced for 6 hours!
My dad set up microphones and stuff so we
could get a feel of what it would be like. AND
it's freaky. It's totally different from just sitting
in my room and playing.
Oh well, So I packed my stuff in like 5 min
since I was staying over and HAHA. I forgot to
bring my sleeping bag AND a pillow or something.
Lol.

We reached Hometeam NS at Bukit Batok
around 4.30pm. Only our squadmates, Some of
Dhanusha ma'ams batch and Jazlyn ma'ams batch
was around. The sec2s and 3s were totally no where
to be seen. Haha, it started getting more crowded
after five and the CIs came back. I think there were about,
40+ people there? Yeah. Then we went to play
Truth or Dare. HAHA. It was THE best. We dared
Andrea to blow kisses to the CIs and Rubini had
to pole dance around Andrea as her pole.
And Zhuang Hua had to pose for a photo!
HAHA. And many many interesting truths were revealed.
We even found out something about a certain CI.
LOL. Yeah.

Then had dinner and whatnot.
All the food ended up finished. EVERYTHING.
Then we were introduced to some crescent NP
alumni. People started leaving around 10pm.
Then near 11pm, we started decorating the room for
the surprise Birthday thing for Jiatru ma'am who
turned 18 and Candy ma'am who turned 21.
HAHA. I started getting really sleepy.
The around midnight, we all hid in the room
and switched off the lights. Then the CIs
did this scam to trick them both.
HAHAH. Yeah then we surprised them
LOL.

Then we went downstairs to talk for abit.
Then some squadmates decided to walk out to
Bukit Gombak station to buy things from 7-eleven.
So Meera ma'am and Jiatru ma'am went with them.
So Liling ma'am was left with us and the juniors. Lol.
And that was alrd 2am ok! I was damn sleepy.
So soon after they came back me and jx went to sleep.
It was damn cold! HAHA.
I set my phone alarm to ring at 8am and so did jx.
She set her's to play Let It Rock and I set mine
to play Disturbia cos we thought its kinda funny
if they started playing at the same time.
THEN stupid Zhuangy called my handphone at 7.30am
from downstairs cos they didn't sleep and woke me up.
Lol. So we cleared up blah blah. Yeah Then I left at 8.40am.

I only reached home at 10.10am. Then I chiong shower,
eat breakfast and change and went for 11am mass with
my family.

Lol. Unit outing was damn fun. HAHA. I'm damn happy that
my parents let me stay over. HAHA.

Labels: life, NPCC

I like hot wax.
Lol. As in the wax that just drips off a candle.
My head hurts.
I notice I get a lot of headaches during NP.
I wanna bang my head on a wall.

Labels: life

My room smells like kiwi. Damn.
And I'm not talking about the fruit.
It's the SHOE POLISH.
Yeah. I just polished my boots.
I swear they look better.
It also kinda smells like there was a small fire.
Since I was using a candle, haha, the melting
kiwi method works best. To me anyway.
HAHA. I borrowed Zhuangy's candle.

Following the sec2s for their Road Safety Park thing tomorrow.
I'm leaving class at 12.30pm. I don't want to really.
I'm missing half of english and E math.
I hope Miss Ho goes through weekend homework.
HAHA. Cos I won't miss out much, since I knew
how to do everything. But OMG,
If she starts on probability I'm deaddddd.
Sighhhh. Oh well. Gotta bring my full u ):

I love Differentiation. HAHA. The first part anyway.
It's damn fun. I shall wait for Mr Ng to finish teaching
then I might do the school homework in advance.
Haha, I think I've almost cleared absolutely every
overdue thing I have. YAY.

I can't get contacts damnit.
It's freaking expensive because of my
abnormally high astigmatism.
I'm not exaggerating, it is abnormally high.
And I HATE it. It's freaking annoying.

I want the weekend to come.
I can't stand weekdays.

I'm starting to panic about chinese.

I feel like crying. I don't know why.

Labels: life, school

I haven't done any homework.
It's ok though, I finished what I need for tomorrow.

I am absolutely exhausted.
Which means, I'm gonna sleep soon.

I went for my LAST hospital appointment today.
YAY. Omg, I'm happy to be rid of them.
My finger has been diagnosed as fine.
Unfortunately, it will be forever bent.
And not ever entirely straight.

Oh no, I dunno what to write for testimonial.

Labels: life, school

I wonder if I'll remember,
All the things that I remember,
10 years from now.

Labels: life

HAHA.
WE MADE IT!
WE GOT THROUGH AUDITIONS.
I AM OFFICIALLY IN CREZAWARDS.
Group vocals with LEEYEANAAAA.
HAHA, Liana.
AND AND AND
Dance with our brilliant leader Jiaxuan,
Geraldine, Andrea, Hazirah, Hazwani,
Rubini, AND ME! HAHAHAHA
We gonna rock the house.
I have no idea when they're selling ticks though.
Must be sooonnn.
HAHA.
We doing the filming for the online voting thingy tmr.
So I'm bringing 2 guitars and 2 sets of clothes.
Nuts right? I know. LOL.
Haha.

I'm gonna miss secondary schooolllll.

Labels: life

snap with poker cards rock.
bluff comes second,
dai di is not so good cos only can have 4 people.
Speed is great when you're waiting for
people to come back from their toilet break.
LOL. HAHA
Playing cards with my cousins is like
THE most hilarious thing everrrrr.

Labels: life

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