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VICTORIA Hannah Kirsten051093
Catholic Junior College
life.sandprints@hotmail.com
Its a lost cause, but I'm stuck anyway.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009 , 8:06:00 PM
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Lessons learned Saturday, September 26, 2009 , 7:49:00 PM ↑
Blood Promise Thursday, September 17, 2009 , 10:11:00 PM ↑
Miow Wednesday, September 16, 2009 , 11:37:00 PM ↑
Uhhhh Monday, September 14, 2009 , 11:00:00 PM ↑
So they sang. Wednesday, September 9, 2009 , 11:01:00 PM ↑
Army Open House 2009 Tuesday, September 8, 2009 , 11:47:00 PM ↑
Blast Sunday, September 6, 2009 , 10:57:00 PM ↑
na na na Thursday, September 3, 2009 , 11:50:00 PM ↑
You know what pisses me off,
not getting angry.
Why is it that just because I never
get angry, there must be something
wrong with me when I do? Doesn't
everyone get angry?? The last I
checked it was completely normal.
But no, apparently its abnormal for me.
I'm gonna rant about my sister now
because I need to. And I couldn't care
less if she reads it. In fact, I hope she
does. With her its like if she gets angry
she expects everyone to accept it and
no one is allowed to fault her even if
she's wrong. But if my mum, or my dad
or I get angry with her she blows up.
She starts spouting the most ridiculous
rubbish on earth. Like she knocks over
my mum's cup of drink and SHE gets
angry with my mum. Or my mum
scolds her for something that happened
between her and my youngest sis and she'll
say, "See lah, Nicole getting me into trouble
again." AHEM, Nicole's 8, she's 13. I find it
hard to believe that Nicole is evil. And she's
never given any proof of Nicole's alleged
evilness anyway. Every morning my parents
have to shout themselves half to death to
try and wake her up and that pisses me off.
Doesn't she ever think of anyone but herself?
She doesn't care that she stresses my parents
out so much. my mum packs up her desk and
within 2 days, its completely devastated. Her
desk is a nightmare. My mum spends hours
on it and she can't even keep it clean for a
week?? Worse still, she scolds my mum if
she can't find something. Everytime she's
angry we have to bear with it but the super
rare times that I actually get angry, she acts
as if I'm not allowed to get angry. She goes
like, "What is wrong with you. So grumpy."
doesn't sound that bad until you hear it in
her tone of voice. Like acid. She's the only
one that doesn't care that I hate getting
angry and by emphasizing that I am, it
makes me more pissed off. She always makes
herself the victim. YEAH RIGHT. Most of the
time, she's the only one in the wrong.
She almost never says she's sorry. She's so
quick to defend herself that she's probably lying
without knowing it. She gets into a huge fight
with my parents and acts completely normal
a couple of hours later like she never did
anything wrong, she's completely unaffected
when everyone else was. She borrows stuff
and never gives it back. The other day, I
borrowed a stick glue from her and she told
me straight off that she didn't know where the
cap was, I said ok and tried to use the half
dried up glue the best that I could. A couple
of days later she comes to me demanding for
it, when I give it to her capless, she goes.
"Where's the cap!" in a super angry voice.
I explain calmly that she gave it to me without.
and the next thing she says is the best. "You
could have asked for the cap!" I was like blank.
Didn't she say she couldn't find it? It made
absolutely no sense. Then she went on to say,
"See lah, how am I supposed to use it now that
its all dried up!" EXCUSE ME, who was the one
that lost the cap! See what I mean. Do something
wrong, blame everyone else. It makes no sense.
I've tried to understand why she's like that.
Why she can't see that when she gets angry
she's no better than a drunkard, making no
sense, blaming the world. And she denies
everything. I wanna help her get out of
her extreme behavior, its been manifested since
she could talk, but its been absolutely impossible.
I don't know what to do. And I just hate the
way she treats her family. Surprise, surprise,
she's an angel to her friends.
On another note, I hate it when people get an
L1R5 of 10 for prelims and they're upset
because it ISN'T A SINGLE DIGIT. Wtf.
not getting angry.
Why is it that just because I never
get angry, there must be something
wrong with me when I do? Doesn't
everyone get angry?? The last I
checked it was completely normal.
But no, apparently its abnormal for me.
I'm gonna rant about my sister now
because I need to. And I couldn't care
less if she reads it. In fact, I hope she
does. With her its like if she gets angry
she expects everyone to accept it and
no one is allowed to fault her even if
she's wrong. But if my mum, or my dad
or I get angry with her she blows up.
She starts spouting the most ridiculous
rubbish on earth. Like she knocks over
my mum's cup of drink and SHE gets
angry with my mum. Or my mum
scolds her for something that happened
between her and my youngest sis and she'll
say, "See lah, Nicole getting me into trouble
again." AHEM, Nicole's 8, she's 13. I find it
hard to believe that Nicole is evil. And she's
never given any proof of Nicole's alleged
evilness anyway. Every morning my parents
have to shout themselves half to death to
try and wake her up and that pisses me off.
Doesn't she ever think of anyone but herself?
She doesn't care that she stresses my parents
out so much. my mum packs up her desk and
within 2 days, its completely devastated. Her
desk is a nightmare. My mum spends hours
on it and she can't even keep it clean for a
week?? Worse still, she scolds my mum if
she can't find something. Everytime she's
angry we have to bear with it but the super
rare times that I actually get angry, she acts
as if I'm not allowed to get angry. She goes
like, "What is wrong with you. So grumpy."
doesn't sound that bad until you hear it in
her tone of voice. Like acid. She's the only
one that doesn't care that I hate getting
angry and by emphasizing that I am, it
makes me more pissed off. She always makes
herself the victim. YEAH RIGHT. Most of the
time, she's the only one in the wrong.
She almost never says she's sorry. She's so
quick to defend herself that she's probably lying
without knowing it. She gets into a huge fight
with my parents and acts completely normal
a couple of hours later like she never did
anything wrong, she's completely unaffected
when everyone else was. She borrows stuff
and never gives it back. The other day, I
borrowed a stick glue from her and she told
me straight off that she didn't know where the
cap was, I said ok and tried to use the half
dried up glue the best that I could. A couple
of days later she comes to me demanding for
it, when I give it to her capless, she goes.
"Where's the cap!" in a super angry voice.
I explain calmly that she gave it to me without.
and the next thing she says is the best. "You
could have asked for the cap!" I was like blank.
Didn't she say she couldn't find it? It made
absolutely no sense. Then she went on to say,
"See lah, how am I supposed to use it now that
its all dried up!" EXCUSE ME, who was the one
that lost the cap! See what I mean. Do something
wrong, blame everyone else. It makes no sense.
I've tried to understand why she's like that.
Why she can't see that when she gets angry
she's no better than a drunkard, making no
sense, blaming the world. And she denies
everything. I wanna help her get out of
her extreme behavior, its been manifested since
she could talk, but its been absolutely impossible.
I don't know what to do. And I just hate the
way she treats her family. Surprise, surprise,
she's an angel to her friends.
On another note, I hate it when people get an
L1R5 of 10 for prelims and they're upset
because it ISN'T A SINGLE DIGIT. Wtf.
Labels: life
Lessons learned Saturday, September 26, 2009 , 7:49:00 PM ↑
Catch yourself before you fall,
or you're sure to hit the ground.
Be cautious in case the road ends,
before you expect it.
Don't walk off the plank, if you're
unsure if there are sharks.
Hold on to what you've got,
you never know when it might leave.
But don't hold on too tight,
if not, it will definitely leave.
Life without love,
isn't a life at all.
Someone told me the other day,
that depression is merely a form of
self-centeredness. I absolutely agree.
And stress is merely a socially-acceptable
form of a mental illness.
Everyone needs someone.
or you're sure to hit the ground.
Be cautious in case the road ends,
before you expect it.
Don't walk off the plank, if you're
unsure if there are sharks.
Hold on to what you've got,
you never know when it might leave.
But don't hold on too tight,
if not, it will definitely leave.
Life without love,
isn't a life at all.
Someone told me the other day,
that depression is merely a form of
self-centeredness. I absolutely agree.
And stress is merely a socially-acceptable
form of a mental illness.
Everyone needs someone.
Blood Promise Thursday, September 17, 2009 , 10:11:00 PM ↑
I JUST READ BLOOD PROMISE.
Yeah yeah, I gave in. My mum actually
suggested that I should read it, so I
wouldn't be bugged about it anymore.
BUT I'M GOING CRAZY NOW.
*warning this post contains spoilers.
(don't read this post if you haven't
read the book and are planning to)
I really really didn't expect all of that
stuff. There were two problems going
on at the same time. One was Lissa's
and of course Rose's. It was absolutely
crazy. Its like, it ended then it didn't,
the it ended then it didn't! THEN IT
ENDED AND THEN IT DIDN'T.
Ok, I just sounded crazy. Nevermind.
But I'm surprised that I liked the way it
turned out. Christian and Lissa broke up,
Adrian's gonna seriously try to start
dating Rose, and if she agrees to, well,
I think I really don't mind. Dimitri isn't
dead but he is full-fledged Strigoi and
obviously, he's loving it. So the tables
have turned, he's hunting Rose down now.
To kill her. But they've heard something
of a "fairytale" that can turn strigoi back,
I mean Rose knows and told Lissa. So the
Dimitri problem is very VERY unsolved
at the moment. Damn. I HAVE TO WAIT
ALMOST A YEAR FOR THE NEXT BOOK.
I've never chased a book series before.
It's really frustrating. I love Adrian Ivashkov.
Dimitri as a Strigoi doesn't stick well with
me so as long as he's still one, well I'm an
Adrian Ivashkov fan now. CAN'T BELIEVE
HE'S NOT DEAD. ARGH.
I'm gonna try and put in some serious
studying tomorrow. But right now, my brain
feels like it's gonna fizzle out. I've read for
almost 5 hours straight. It's really exhausting.
Yeah yeah, I gave in. My mum actually
suggested that I should read it, so I
wouldn't be bugged about it anymore.
BUT I'M GOING CRAZY NOW.
*warning this post contains spoilers.
(don't read this post if you haven't
read the book and are planning to)
I really really didn't expect all of that
stuff. There were two problems going
on at the same time. One was Lissa's
and of course Rose's. It was absolutely
crazy. Its like, it ended then it didn't,
the it ended then it didn't! THEN IT
ENDED AND THEN IT DIDN'T.
Ok, I just sounded crazy. Nevermind.
But I'm surprised that I liked the way it
turned out. Christian and Lissa broke up,
Adrian's gonna seriously try to start
dating Rose, and if she agrees to, well,
I think I really don't mind. Dimitri isn't
dead but he is full-fledged Strigoi and
obviously, he's loving it. So the tables
have turned, he's hunting Rose down now.
To kill her. But they've heard something
of a "fairytale" that can turn strigoi back,
I mean Rose knows and told Lissa. So the
Dimitri problem is very VERY unsolved
at the moment. Damn. I HAVE TO WAIT
ALMOST A YEAR FOR THE NEXT BOOK.
I've never chased a book series before.
It's really frustrating. I love Adrian Ivashkov.
Dimitri as a Strigoi doesn't stick well with
me so as long as he's still one, well I'm an
Adrian Ivashkov fan now. CAN'T BELIEVE
HE'S NOT DEAD. ARGH.
I'm gonna try and put in some serious
studying tomorrow. But right now, my brain
feels like it's gonna fizzle out. I've read for
almost 5 hours straight. It's really exhausting.
Labels: life
Miow Wednesday, September 16, 2009 , 11:37:00 PM ↑
Prelims are over for me. Yeah, I'm the lucky ass.
Lol. Majority of my level still has chem tomorrow
and those retaking MT have the prelim on friday.
I seriously have to stop watching romance movies.
They make me more sad than anything. Still, my
favourite movie is still A Cinderella Story. I must
have watched it over 20 times already. So the
quality's not the best, its a pretty old movie but
hey, it gives me a little hope that some fairytales
come true. I really need a fairytale. Or a miracle,
either's fine. You know what, I just had a thought.
I don't think I'd ever find a romantic Singaporean
guy. Like sheesh, what kind of a proposal is, "eh,
wanna go buy HDB flat?" I'd slap the guy if he said
that. Yes, I'm a terrible romantic. But seriously,
why aren't guys like that anymore. Ok, maybe
some are, but they're a severe minority I think.
I'll stop ranting now. But really, is it so much to
ask for a guy to be romantic? LOL.
Lol. Majority of my level still has chem tomorrow
and those retaking MT have the prelim on friday.
I seriously have to stop watching romance movies.
They make me more sad than anything. Still, my
favourite movie is still A Cinderella Story. I must
have watched it over 20 times already. So the
quality's not the best, its a pretty old movie but
hey, it gives me a little hope that some fairytales
come true. I really need a fairytale. Or a miracle,
either's fine. You know what, I just had a thought.
I don't think I'd ever find a romantic Singaporean
guy. Like sheesh, what kind of a proposal is, "eh,
wanna go buy HDB flat?" I'd slap the guy if he said
that. Yes, I'm a terrible romantic. But seriously,
why aren't guys like that anymore. Ok, maybe
some are, but they're a severe minority I think.
I'll stop ranting now. But really, is it so much to
ask for a guy to be romantic? LOL.
Labels: life
Uhhhh Monday, September 14, 2009 , 11:00:00 PM ↑
When you meet people online, what's your first thought?
Me I wonder how old they are. Then I wonder where
they're from. I'm talking about rpgs so you don't see
their faces or their names or whatever. Its really
interesting. The best way to get research on youths
around the world. I mean they could be lying but
they must have gotten their lies from somewhere right?
Lol. Like peer pressure or whatever. Imagine being
in a semi-chatroom listening to people from the halfway
around the world talking about how they do pot and
they love it and they drink, and they wish they were
drunk. and they take sleeping pills to get high and they're
all either presently gay, have been gay or are bi. From
where I'm sitting, its interesting. I'm not gonna get into
that stuff. (EWW) I mean that's why I see people talk
about it, cos I'm never gonna do that stuff. Scary shit.
And they aren't all from the same country so its kinda
like a wider perspective. Is all that shit fun????
Honestly I find it a BIG turn-off. Not cool. It's slow
suicide anyway. I'd rather be called pure and innocent
for the rest of my life. I dunno how much of that stuff
is done around here. It'll be interesting to find out.
But I haven't met a single Singaporean yet. Mostly all
from the northern hemisphere. I feel as if I should
write an essay now. Damn SBQs, won't leave me alone.
Me I wonder how old they are. Then I wonder where
they're from. I'm talking about rpgs so you don't see
their faces or their names or whatever. Its really
interesting. The best way to get research on youths
around the world. I mean they could be lying but
they must have gotten their lies from somewhere right?
Lol. Like peer pressure or whatever. Imagine being
in a semi-chatroom listening to people from the halfway
around the world talking about how they do pot and
they love it and they drink, and they wish they were
drunk. and they take sleeping pills to get high and they're
all either presently gay, have been gay or are bi. From
where I'm sitting, its interesting. I'm not gonna get into
that stuff. (EWW) I mean that's why I see people talk
about it, cos I'm never gonna do that stuff. Scary shit.
And they aren't all from the same country so its kinda
like a wider perspective. Is all that shit fun????
Honestly I find it a BIG turn-off. Not cool. It's slow
suicide anyway. I'd rather be called pure and innocent
for the rest of my life. I dunno how much of that stuff
is done around here. It'll be interesting to find out.
But I haven't met a single Singaporean yet. Mostly all
from the northern hemisphere. I feel as if I should
write an essay now. Damn SBQs, won't leave me alone.
Labels: life
So they sang. Wednesday, September 9, 2009 , 11:01:00 PM ↑
Who's to say, I haven't lost control?
There's a good chance, I have.
And I hear what they say.
No, I am not the best.
Stereotyped yes.
one piece of good news,
expected of the rest.
Delusional, they are.
Illusions that comfort, but are blind.
You tell yourself you'll survive,
But you won't.
Suppose there was hope. Good.
Not many are so lucky.
Like myself, for example.
Perish evil thoughts!
So I may see a clear path.
Victory lies beyond the black gates.
My head pounds hard, does yours?
A piece of mind picked out,
too much to fear, ergo you,
will fall in failure.
There's a good chance, I have.
And I hear what they say.
No, I am not the best.
Stereotyped yes.
one piece of good news,
expected of the rest.
Delusional, they are.
Illusions that comfort, but are blind.
You tell yourself you'll survive,
But you won't.
Suppose there was hope. Good.
Not many are so lucky.
Like myself, for example.
Perish evil thoughts!
So I may see a clear path.
Victory lies beyond the black gates.
My head pounds hard, does yours?
A piece of mind picked out,
too much to fear, ergo you,
will fall in failure.
Army Open House 2009 Tuesday, September 8, 2009 , 11:47:00 PM ↑
Army Open House 2009!
HAHA.
Yes yes, I went yesterday.
With Zhuang Hua, Jiaxuan, Andrea, Rubini, Zakiah, Vivien and Hazwani.
It was pretty awesome. We got to climb
into the the vehicles and stuff and we
watched a simulated terrorist attack, with the
tanks and everything, firing blanks of course.
But damn, it was LOUD. I think most soldiers
go deaf in the end. Gunshots are scarily loud.
I really had no idea that they were THAT loud.
Anyway, we got to take photos with some
soldiers! HAHA. But we didn't get to do the
live firing :'( sighh...nevermind, there's always next year :D We saw the SAF Drama and Music people again! The awesome beat boxer, Dharni, who I found out was actually Singapore's rep at a word beat boxing comp.
Really amazing stuff. Anyway, I think that
if Singapore ever wanted to send anyone to
rep our country in singing or whatever, they
should send the SAF Drama and Music Company.
They're better than the Singapore Idols anyway.
Lol. We had dinner after that at Jurong point, during the dinner hour! BIG mistake, it was crazily crowded. But we managed to get a place at Macs. Yeah, then MRT-ed alllll the way home.
I reached home around 10. Anyway, that's the most excitement I've had in a while. Gonna crash, waking up early tomorrow.
HAHA.
Yes yes, I went yesterday.
With Zhuang Hua, Jiaxuan, Andrea, Rubini, Zakiah, Vivien and Hazwani.
It was pretty awesome. We got to climb
into the the vehicles and stuff and we
watched a simulated terrorist attack, with the
tanks and everything, firing blanks of course.
But damn, it was LOUD. I think most soldiers
go deaf in the end. Gunshots are scarily loud.
I really had no idea that they were THAT loud.
Anyway, we got to take photos with some
soldiers! HAHA. But we didn't get to do the
live firing :'( sighh...nevermind, there's always next year :D We saw the SAF Drama and Music people again! The awesome beat boxer, Dharni, who I found out was actually Singapore's rep at a word beat boxing comp.
Really amazing stuff. Anyway, I think that
if Singapore ever wanted to send anyone to
rep our country in singing or whatever, they
should send the SAF Drama and Music Company.
They're better than the Singapore Idols anyway.
Lol. We had dinner after that at Jurong point, during the dinner hour! BIG mistake, it was crazily crowded. But we managed to get a place at Macs. Yeah, then MRT-ed alllll the way home.
I reached home around 10. Anyway, that's the most excitement I've had in a while. Gonna crash, waking up early tomorrow.
Labels: life
Blast Sunday, September 6, 2009 , 10:57:00 PM ↑
ITS BUGGING ME.
Haha, luckily, I've roped in help.
*Laughs evily*
Sigh, I need to get more help.
ALTHOUGH, I've discovered something interesting.
But I've told myself not to jump to
conclusions cos well, I could be wrong :D
HAHA.
I've already done a brilliant job in
restraining myself from killing him.
Haha, luckily, I've roped in help.
*Laughs evily*
Sigh, I need to get more help.
ALTHOUGH, I've discovered something interesting.
But I've told myself not to jump to
conclusions cos well, I could be wrong :D
HAHA.
I've already done a brilliant job in
restraining myself from killing him.
Labels: life
na na na Thursday, September 3, 2009 , 11:50:00 PM ↑
A quick word!
AHHHH.
It's so frustrating you know!
Sigh but I'm trying my best to keep
an open mind, so I won't be like
expecting anyone in particular,
cos then I could be disappointed. Lol.
Anyway, AHHH
I've got 5 papers left.
A math paper 1 and 2,
geog paper 2 ,
physics paper 1 and 2.
Yup.
AHHHH.
It's so frustrating you know!
Sigh but I'm trying my best to keep
an open mind, so I won't be like
expecting anyone in particular,
cos then I could be disappointed. Lol.
Anyway, AHHH
I've got 5 papers left.
A math paper 1 and 2,
geog paper 2 ,
physics paper 1 and 2.
Yup.
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