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ANDDDDD the dream has ended.
My parents won't let me get a nazar.
Whatever.
I am overwhelmed with math.
I'm doing so much math everyday that
my imagination is suffering. Too
much teachnical tuff has killed my
literary skills. Ah freak. One month
to prelims. Do you know how scary that is?
I'm really really terrified.
I wanna hide in some dark corner
and pretend its all a really bad nightmare.
I've got my new goal in life, well, apart
from getting married and having like 6 kids,
I wanna work in Resorts World Sentosa.
I don't mind even being a dealer in the Casinos.
Why not man. It'll be fun. But the most ideal
would be working in one of the six hotels
that are going to be there. Yup. New aim in
life. So what do I study in uni to get there then?
You can't study hospitality right? Sigh.

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My birthday is approximately 2 months and a week away.
And I know exactly what I want! I want the limited edition
Blood Promise Bracelet. PROBLEM IS: since its LIMITED EDITION
its ALREADY SOLD OUT. So whoever it is that is getting it
for me (hint hint) has to go find it on ebay or amazon
OR convince the seller of the jewelery to make me one :D
OMG. I REALLY WANT IT. It even has a Molnija mark! ARGH.
For clueless people, its jewelery made based on the most
awesomest series ever, Vampire Academy Series! I really
really really want it so badly. Ok, another one is another
piece of jewelery by the same maker called Siberian Tears.
This gorgeous necklace has a Nazar like Rose's, but this
one isn't coming out for a few weeks yet so I'll check up
on it again. Yup, so those two are the top on my birthday
wishlist right now so anyone wanna contribute to the
VICTORIA BIRTHDAY PRESENT FUND? Haha, cos if I really get
them I'm getting them shipped from the US and they
aren't cheap to begin with. Real gemstones and all so
yup, I need funds :D

Labels: life

You know, I'm tired. And worried.
The homework I'm getting is insane.
I keep up with it. I'm wanting to get
consultations with teachers for questions
that I don't know, but how am I supposed
to do that when my whole day is ALLL
remedials such that I don't even have time
to get consultations. I feel like quitting
tuition. I know it sounds like a stupid
time to quit tuition but I feel as if I
need that extra time in school to get
consultations since that's the only that
DOESN'T have any remedials. Sigh. This
sucks.I wanted to quit one out of the three
lessons that I take a week but I could tell
that my tuition teacher was reluctant to let
me go. So ends up I didn't quit that lesson.
Well obviously he would be reluctant right,
he'd be losing money. Yeah, So I kinda dunno
what to do now. And I'm behind in all my
homework except E math. My A math is totally
screwed right now. Integration is driving me
nuts and I just can't get some of the answers
right which is WHY I need consultations.
Argh. I'm going nuts already. And I need to
do something quick. Also I feel as if my
tuition teacher has the wrong impression
of me. I have this feeling he thinks I'm a pro.
Which is bad, cause I'm far from that. I
really hate my schedule right now. It's
totally uncontrollable and everything is
compulsory you know? So I can't even decide
which to go for. Sighhhh. My prelims are
in a month. I am SO dead.

Labels: life, school

I feel weird.
Weird.
No other word

You know what I do when I'm sad?
I write letters.
To people. But I'd never post them.
I write with the intention of feeling
as if I'm talking to them.
It works sometimes.
Just sometimes.

Watched HP6 yesterday.
I liked it! Despite what my sis says.
I think its one of the better HP movies.
And Tom Felton is pure hotness.
He appeared in this movie a lot!
Which is great. Too bad he won't be
around much in the last two movies.

Damn its monday.
I hate sunday nights you know?
And I love friday nights.
You know, I don't like school much.
The lessons part anyway.

Labels: life

Conscience? Is that you at the door
No I tell you now, go away.
I know what your honest mouth will spew
What? there is no wrong, the Mistress is out.

Shh...Father slumbers, I saw his dirtied drink.
She did it you know? and went to see the devil.
No you, stop your nagging She deserves it.
All her makeup flushed away, oh how she'll howl.

Did you see that skimpy dress?
Father ignored it, what a fool.
Never you mind, I'll make sure she cowers.
have you got a pill to wake him?

Is that the key in the lock? What joy!
Hear that drunken slur She has no shame!
She will sober up fast I reckon. Once she
sees her wardrobe's sorry state.

Quickly, to the bomb shelter. She doesn't
like the cobwebs in her muddy tresses.
Time for Operation Number 2, she's throwing
a bash at that devil's house. A forged invitation
Conscience? Already in my pocket.

An original poem by Victoria Hannah Goh

Labels: life, poems

I just watched For One More Day.
A movie based on the book by Mitch Albom.
I have to say, it's one movie that followed
the book exactly. The exact dialogues even.
Amazing. It was so sad. But I like it.

I feel out of it. I always feel out of it.
Like something isn't ever right.
I get depressed so freaking easily.

Dunno what to do about the CI thing.
Yesterday Andrea told me to pray about it.
And it actually occurred to me that I hadn't tried!
See what's happening to me.
How could I forget God? Andrea's advice was
definitely God-sent. I guess it kinda took such
obvious means for me to realise. Since I just
remembered, the recent sermons have been
about this kind of thing. Well thank God for
Andrea then, literally.

My imagination is taking on a sadistic streak.

This is the poem I wrote in lit today.
Based off the poem by Carol Ann Duffy

Stealing

I took it. A face, one like mine
Midnight. Snuck her to a safe-house
Sleeping pills in her throat, enough to last the day
Went back Closed my eyes
woke up with her face

Better of dead than giving in, not taking
what you want. Took no effort to fool
the parent, less for the friends.
Part of the thrill was knowing
She'd never figure it out

I steal things worth stealing, an experience
a birthday, a piece of good news.
I'm the one in control and they never know
Then I come to my favourite part, the mirrors

Reality was calling, the sky dimming
I trudged back, nearly regretting
Replaced her in her bed and walked out
never looking back. Started to wonder
who's life I'd try tomorrow.

Labels: life, poems

I had a really weird dream last night.
And I was talking to someone who was
supposedly my friend but right now I have
no idea who he is! Sigh.

Youth Day today. Whaha.
No school.

Labels: life

It's been a good/bad week.
I'll just talk about the good stuff.
I watched Transformers2 yesterday!
It was good! I loved it. Who cares about
critics huh. I think the action was
totally worth paying $7.50 for.
Oh last saturday I watched Casanova
on channel5.
Haha. I love that movie. Everyone lied
to everyone from the moment the movie
started until the end. Lol. But the main actor
died of drug overdose or something.
Heath Ledger. So sad. He was good looking.
And a great Casanova. And there was a Victoria
in the movie, and she was crazy. Lol.
I just came back a couple of minutes ago
from playing Pokemon monopoly with Glen and
Justin at Glen's house. Lol. It was hilarious.
We were taking turns to be rich and poor.
The game was going in circles. We were at it for
2 and a 1/2 hours. lol. I have got absolutely
nothing to do this weekend. But oddly enough,
I feel as if I should study. I seem to feel like that
nowadays. Its a totally foreign feeling.
But good, for now anyway.
Hmmm... that's it for now.

Labels: life

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