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VICTORIA Hannah Kirsten051093
Catholic Junior College
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insanity
Saturday, April 11, 2009 , 12:18:00 AM
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I torture myself.
Mentally, emotionally.
I don't want to let go.
Pure stupidity, some may call it.
My only defense is that I'm a girl.
Even then, it often doesn't apply.
Looks like I'm losing this battle aren't I?
Why do I watch romance movies
with extremely happy endings?
Because for two hours, I can pretend that's me.
I need what I can't get.
A terrible feeling of nothingness.
I don't know what to do.
I can't force you and I won't try.
I can only wish, so hard that it hurts.
I hate myself for all this.
But I can't, and I don't want to.
And I don't know if I've got it right.
I don't know if I"m handling this the best way.
And damnit, I miss you.
And I hate myself for that.
If I could be angry, and hate you for it,
it'd be so much easier.
But I can't, I can't.
I can't
Mentally, emotionally.
I don't want to let go.
Pure stupidity, some may call it.
My only defense is that I'm a girl.
Even then, it often doesn't apply.
Looks like I'm losing this battle aren't I?
Why do I watch romance movies
with extremely happy endings?
Because for two hours, I can pretend that's me.
I need what I can't get.
A terrible feeling of nothingness.
I don't know what to do.
I can't force you and I won't try.
I can only wish, so hard that it hurts.
I hate myself for all this.
But I can't, and I don't want to.
And I don't know if I've got it right.
I don't know if I"m handling this the best way.
And damnit, I miss you.
And I hate myself for that.
If I could be angry, and hate you for it,
it'd be so much easier.
But I can't, I can't.
I can't
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