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me Tuesday, January 27, 2009 , 11:20:00 PM ↑

I suddenly feel like crying for no reason.
Maybe there is a reason but I don't know it.
I got a damned sore throat.
My throat hurts.
And that means...
Nevermind, I don't want to think about it.
Makes me want to cry more.
It is at times like this that I wish I had someone.
Someone but not anyone.
Sighh...but anyway I just realised how
ironic and contradicting it is like...
Ok, I don't feel like explaining.

Damn you.
You know how hard it is to forget?
Someone just obliviate me please.
I wish I had amnesia.
I'd rather forget everything.
Sacrifice my good memories to get rid of the bad ones.
Or rather, the ones that I don't want to remember.
I can never figure out why I made the decisions
I did, only regret that I did because nothing good
came out of it.
I can't trust myself or anyone.
As in for that situation.
Argh. I'm talking rubbish.
You know how they say its better to have loved and
lost than to have never loved at all?
I disagree totally. I'd rather not live with the pain
and the sadness and the memories.
Ha, a lot of good it does me.
Clogging up my brain.

Forget it, I'm trying not to swallow.
I feel like not eating anything tomorrow.
I'm gonna pray for this damn sore throat to
disappear by the time I wake up.

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