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VICTORIA Hannah Kirsten051093
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Like butterflies
Thursday, October 30, 2008 , 9:46:00 PM
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I guess you never knew how hearts could be so fragile. , 12:36:00 AM ↑
And you made all the promises you couldn't keep. Tuesday, October 28, 2008 , 11:55:00 PM ↑
I guess its over. Monday, October 27, 2008 , 9:43:00 PM ↑
Bah. Sunday, October 26, 2008 , 9:21:00 PM ↑
Weekend , 12:57:00 AM ↑
Tomato Jam Thursday, October 23, 2008 , 11:23:00 PM ↑
"It's complicated" isn't just a facebook status, it's a fact of life. Tuesday, October 21, 2008 , 11:43:00 PM ↑
It's getting exciting again. Sunday, October 19, 2008 , 9:57:00 PM ↑
Setback Thursday, October 16, 2008 , 11:03:00 PM ↑
A vicious cycle. I'll never be happy. Tuesday, October 14, 2008 , 11:45:00 PM ↑
Progressions Monday, October 13, 2008 , 12:05:00 AM ↑
More torture. Tuesday, October 7, 2008 , 11:34:00 PM ↑
belated birthday present. HA. Monday, October 6, 2008 , 8:03:00 PM ↑
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME Sunday, October 5, 2008 , 11:21:00 PM ↑
You shattered a heart already broken,
A sigh heard inside,
Like butterflies forgotten,
An envelope unmarked,
Words created by fairy's fingers,
Make believe, fake smiles hid the mask,
Roses hung, brushing last breaths,
Smell of death threaded through,
The silver lining of a grey cloud,
The crinkle of a fresh dollar note,
Crushed, torn like waste from a kitchen,
A girl on your favorite swing in the park,
Tears fall, staining the sand in patterns,
She gets up and walks away.
No, you'd never know I'd hurt this way...
A sigh heard inside,
Like butterflies forgotten,
An envelope unmarked,
Words created by fairy's fingers,
Make believe, fake smiles hid the mask,
Roses hung, brushing last breaths,
Smell of death threaded through,
The silver lining of a grey cloud,
The crinkle of a fresh dollar note,
Crushed, torn like waste from a kitchen,
A girl on your favorite swing in the park,
Tears fall, staining the sand in patterns,
She gets up and walks away.
No, you'd never know I'd hurt this way...
Labels: poems
I guess you never knew how hearts could be so fragile. , 12:36:00 AM ↑
No, it's not simple.
When the two things in my life
that made me the most happy turned around
and slapped me in the face.
Destroyed.
Gone.
Finished.
Over.
Final.
Finality.
Have I ever said how much I hate those words.
Well, I do.
I don't want to be upset.
I don't want to be sad.
I don't want to be depressed.
I don't want to cry.
But I'm scared if I keep it in for too long
I might not be able to cope
when they finally overflow.
All this makes me want to shrink into a corner.
Not say another word until I die,
Withdraw from everything.
But I can't.
Of course not,
I'd be sent to a mental hospital
before I'm allowed to try a stunt like that.
I do more listening that talking these days.
I'm serious, I can hardly believe it either.
I'm too tired to talk.
To give explainations for why I've been
so out of it,
for why I look so tired,
for why I'm staring into space,
for why I look so sad,
for what I'm thinking about,
for what is troubling me,
for what I'm depressed about.
I don't need to explain anything to anyone,
except myself, and God.
I can't believe Survival Camp is on Friday.
I don't want to go.
I feel like just not going.
No explainations needed.
When the two things in my life
that made me the most happy turned around
and slapped me in the face.
Destroyed.
Gone.
Finished.
Over.
Final.
Finality.
Have I ever said how much I hate those words.
Well, I do.
I don't want to be upset.
I don't want to be sad.
I don't want to be depressed.
I don't want to cry.
But I'm scared if I keep it in for too long
I might not be able to cope
when they finally overflow.
All this makes me want to shrink into a corner.
Not say another word until I die,
Withdraw from everything.
But I can't.
Of course not,
I'd be sent to a mental hospital
before I'm allowed to try a stunt like that.
I do more listening that talking these days.
I'm serious, I can hardly believe it either.
I'm too tired to talk.
To give explainations for why I've been
so out of it,
for why I look so tired,
for why I'm staring into space,
for why I look so sad,
for what I'm thinking about,
for what is troubling me,
for what I'm depressed about.
I don't need to explain anything to anyone,
except myself, and God.
I can't believe Survival Camp is on Friday.
I don't want to go.
I feel like just not going.
No explainations needed.
Labels: life
And you made all the promises you couldn't keep. Tuesday, October 28, 2008 , 11:55:00 PM ↑
CSI is creepy.
But damn exciting!
HAHAHA.
I feel like a nut.
My sis is outside denying another
mistake she made. Sigh.
I'm used to her voice.
And my mum's.
Having the same stupid arguments.
The most I can do when asked questions is
answer truthfully. Since I'm innocent anyway.
Sigh. I hear the voices raising.
Damn, it's a bad night.
I have to shift my toothbrush?
Lol. No matter. Not a big thing.
Dunno what's up with my sis anyway,
she acts as if making a mistake
is the end of the world.
Ok. But enough about her.
Well, there's not much to say about me either.
Other than I don't want to go to school tomorrow?
Oh, Liana's a very good therapist.
She makes sense. And it helps.
To figure out my messed up brain.
Like she says, I probably complicate things much
more than they actually are.
Well, I guess.
I've even more inspired to be a child psychologist now.
Interesting.
It's so fun. Ok, that's a little sadistic.
I guess its nice cos I'll be helping kids.
I love kids.
Damn, I need to get a tan.
Going to Sentosa on Monday made me feel like
I migrated to India? I forgot all the Banglahs
were having off-day.
Oh well, saddening. I'll go back again though.
Although it sounds a little sad, I should go by myself.
Haha. I'm getting an SICC card.
So I can go sunbathe by the pool by myself.
Get a nice tan. Unfortunately,
it'll be without the waves and sand.
FORTUNATELY, it'll be peaceful.
Hahahaha. I wanna go shopping.
Haha, I just realised that, other than studying
and doing homework, I'm better off doing a lot of things
by myself. Interesting. I should try it sometime.
Sometime before I go crazy, or die anyway.
I'm going to sleep soon.
Wonder what classes I have tomorrow.
Lol. Goodnight.
I wonder if anyone could tell that this was all fake.
But damn exciting!
HAHAHA.
I feel like a nut.
My sis is outside denying another
mistake she made. Sigh.
I'm used to her voice.
And my mum's.
Having the same stupid arguments.
The most I can do when asked questions is
answer truthfully. Since I'm innocent anyway.
Sigh. I hear the voices raising.
Damn, it's a bad night.
I have to shift my toothbrush?
Lol. No matter. Not a big thing.
Dunno what's up with my sis anyway,
she acts as if making a mistake
is the end of the world.
Ok. But enough about her.
Well, there's not much to say about me either.
Other than I don't want to go to school tomorrow?
Oh, Liana's a very good therapist.
She makes sense. And it helps.
To figure out my messed up brain.
Like she says, I probably complicate things much
more than they actually are.
Well, I guess.
I've even more inspired to be a child psychologist now.
Interesting.
It's so fun. Ok, that's a little sadistic.
I guess its nice cos I'll be helping kids.
I love kids.
Damn, I need to get a tan.
Going to Sentosa on Monday made me feel like
I migrated to India? I forgot all the Banglahs
were having off-day.
Oh well, saddening. I'll go back again though.
Although it sounds a little sad, I should go by myself.
Haha. I'm getting an SICC card.
So I can go sunbathe by the pool by myself.
Get a nice tan. Unfortunately,
it'll be without the waves and sand.
FORTUNATELY, it'll be peaceful.
Hahahaha. I wanna go shopping.
Haha, I just realised that, other than studying
and doing homework, I'm better off doing a lot of things
by myself. Interesting. I should try it sometime.
Sometime before I go crazy, or die anyway.
I'm going to sleep soon.
Wonder what classes I have tomorrow.
Lol. Goodnight.
I wonder if anyone could tell that this was all fake.
Labels: life
I guess its over. Monday, October 27, 2008 , 9:43:00 PM ↑
For once, I am going to try and
make life as easy for myself as possible.
I am not going to read too much into anything,
I'm gonna accept what I know,
and try, try, TRY, TRY to move on.
It's not going to be easy.
That's all I know.
Have you ever felt your heart hurt,
As in real, physical pain.
It's bad, really.
Or maybe I was having a panic attack.
Well, whatever.
This will hurt the most though,
More then the others.
You know why,
Couldn't help believing in fairytales.
make life as easy for myself as possible.
I am not going to read too much into anything,
I'm gonna accept what I know,
and try, try, TRY, TRY to move on.
It's not going to be easy.
That's all I know.
Have you ever felt your heart hurt,
As in real, physical pain.
It's bad, really.
Or maybe I was having a panic attack.
Well, whatever.
This will hurt the most though,
More then the others.
You know why,
Couldn't help believing in fairytales.
Labels: life
Bah. Sunday, October 26, 2008 , 9:21:00 PM ↑
Thank you to Geraldine and Elgyn
who took me to eat apple strudel today :D
And tried to cheer me up.
Oh well, didn't really work
But, I guess that's just me.
I'll probably get over it when
Geraldine finally recovers from Grudge2.
I need to go to the beach.
I dunno why. It just feels like
I should be going there.
And I want to cycle, and swim
and bowl. Nvm. This'll never end.
Ivan is majorly sadistic.
Sigh.
who took me to eat apple strudel today :D
And tried to cheer me up.
Oh well, didn't really work
But, I guess that's just me.
I'll probably get over it when
Geraldine finally recovers from Grudge2.
I need to go to the beach.
I dunno why. It just feels like
I should be going there.
And I want to cycle, and swim
and bowl. Nvm. This'll never end.
Ivan is majorly sadistic.
Sigh.
Labels: life
Weekend , 12:57:00 AM ↑
I'm addicted to play Sims2!
Lol. I forgot to put 'away' on my MSN,
So sorry to the 4 people who said hi to me and
got no reply. Oh well.
Yeah. back to the topic.
I'm VERY addicted. Haha.
Keeps my mind off things.
I am successfully raising a family of 7 + dog.
Haha. Parents, college daughter,
teenage son, kid daughter, adopted kid daughter,
baby boy. Lol. The parents want to have 10 kids!
I'm only halfway there.
Lol. I had to make them drink the Elixir of Life,
so they wouldn't become elders.
Or else they won't be able to have kids anymore!
Haha. I had to add another floor to the house.
Which has three more bedrooms and another bathroom.
Lol, there was no more space!
Anyway the house damn big lah.
There's a garage with 2 sports cars in it,
and a greenhouse, barbecue pit and two swimming
pools in the backyard. Maybe I should let them
adopt another kid. Hopefully its a boy this time.
Or else very unbalanced.
Argh, I still can't get a melody for the song!!!!!
Sigh. I'm almost running out of ideas.
Oh yeah. I got my birthday present from my parents!
The gorgeous white canon camera :D
AND I started searching for my confi dress.
Lets just say it wouldn't be as easy as I thought.
Lol. I forgot to put 'away' on my MSN,
So sorry to the 4 people who said hi to me and
got no reply. Oh well.
Yeah. back to the topic.
I'm VERY addicted. Haha.
Keeps my mind off things.
I am successfully raising a family of 7 + dog.
Haha. Parents, college daughter,
teenage son, kid daughter, adopted kid daughter,
baby boy. Lol. The parents want to have 10 kids!
I'm only halfway there.
Lol. I had to make them drink the Elixir of Life,
so they wouldn't become elders.
Or else they won't be able to have kids anymore!
Haha. I had to add another floor to the house.
Which has three more bedrooms and another bathroom.
Lol, there was no more space!
Anyway the house damn big lah.
There's a garage with 2 sports cars in it,
and a greenhouse, barbecue pit and two swimming
pools in the backyard. Maybe I should let them
adopt another kid. Hopefully its a boy this time.
Or else very unbalanced.
Argh, I still can't get a melody for the song!!!!!
Sigh. I'm almost running out of ideas.
Oh yeah. I got my birthday present from my parents!
The gorgeous white canon camera :D
AND I started searching for my confi dress.
Lets just say it wouldn't be as easy as I thought.
Labels: life
Tomato Jam Thursday, October 23, 2008 , 11:23:00 PM ↑
Lol. Band meeting(:
Haha. So far, We have the lyrics to one song,
unfortunately no melody yet.
We edited the song like twice already.
Haha. We'll probably continue editing as we compose.
It's really fun, extremely hilarious.
Haha. Today was the best.
Lol. The song doesn't have a title yet.
Funny enough, its based on my current situation.
Haha. Emooo.
UNFORTUNATELY, it isn't helping me deal with the
situation any better. Mostly I'm in denial,
Cos if I try to think about it, or face it even,
I'll probably just breakdown.
Or something, that isn't really good.
So I find that denial is easier.
unfortunately (AGAIN), I can't be in denial forever.
Reality will catch up with me.
I'm hoping I can skip the entire reality thing though,
and start on the happiness again.
Lol. I wish I was that lucky.
I'm not.
I don't want to cry. Or be sad.
But I'm starting to think that my sudden, uncontrollable,
bouts of laughter have nothing to do with being happy.
Instead, it may be a subconscious defense system to
prevent me from crying, or being sad.
How tragic.
Walk towards the future and hold on to the past,
Try to move and trip on the rope,
That's tying you to a tree,
Which stores every memory,
And guess what, you can never move on.
Haha. So far, We have the lyrics to one song,
unfortunately no melody yet.
We edited the song like twice already.
Haha. We'll probably continue editing as we compose.
It's really fun, extremely hilarious.
Haha. Today was the best.
Lol. The song doesn't have a title yet.
Funny enough, its based on my current situation.
Haha. Emooo.
UNFORTUNATELY, it isn't helping me deal with the
situation any better. Mostly I'm in denial,
Cos if I try to think about it, or face it even,
I'll probably just breakdown.
Or something, that isn't really good.
So I find that denial is easier.
unfortunately (AGAIN), I can't be in denial forever.
Reality will catch up with me.
I'm hoping I can skip the entire reality thing though,
and start on the happiness again.
Lol. I wish I was that lucky.
I'm not.
I don't want to cry. Or be sad.
But I'm starting to think that my sudden, uncontrollable,
bouts of laughter have nothing to do with being happy.
Instead, it may be a subconscious defense system to
prevent me from crying, or being sad.
How tragic.
Walk towards the future and hold on to the past,
Try to move and trip on the rope,
That's tying you to a tree,
Which stores every memory,
And guess what, you can never move on.
Labels: life
"It's complicated" isn't just a facebook status, it's a fact of life. Tuesday, October 21, 2008 , 11:43:00 PM ↑
I'm at the depression stage in the vicious cycle of my life.
Things are really not good now.
I'm confused, I don't know what to do.
And no amount of shopping will make me feel better.
All the things that have ever really hurt me
are never the material things in life
but the things that matter a lot to me.
Mostly, it's people. I've really got to stop doing this.
I just found out that Geraldine goes through the same
kind of cycle: craziness, stability, depression.
And it starts again. I'm sick of it really.
I can't stand it. Every year since secondary school started.
Just when I think that things are getting stable
and I'm really happy, something will happen
and I'll be really broken up about it.
Then things will get crazy.
I don't know how much longer I can live like this.
It hasn't sunk in yet. I don't know when it will.
But when it does, Armageddon.
I think I need a psychiatrist.
Things are really not good now.
I'm confused, I don't know what to do.
And no amount of shopping will make me feel better.
All the things that have ever really hurt me
are never the material things in life
but the things that matter a lot to me.
Mostly, it's people. I've really got to stop doing this.
I just found out that Geraldine goes through the same
kind of cycle: craziness, stability, depression.
And it starts again. I'm sick of it really.
I can't stand it. Every year since secondary school started.
Just when I think that things are getting stable
and I'm really happy, something will happen
and I'll be really broken up about it.
Then things will get crazy.
I don't know how much longer I can live like this.
It hasn't sunk in yet. I don't know when it will.
But when it does, Armageddon.
I think I need a psychiatrist.
Labels: life
It's getting exciting again. Sunday, October 19, 2008 , 9:57:00 PM ↑
So.
Thanks Amanda for buying me
those damn gorgeous flip-flops from Billabong!:D
(I managed to change the size btw:D) Haha. Yeah.
I went shopping today!
I guess its been a rather crazzzyyy day.
I woke up at 10am. No no, GERALDINE woke me up at 10am.
Lol, she called me.
I went to trim my hair at Thomson Plaza around 12.30pm.
Took my IC photo straight afterwards.
Ate lunch at Sakae Sushi.
Sent my sis for her piano lesson and changed the size of the flip-flops.
Went to Marina Square to shop :D
Bought a top from Zara and a top from Fox.
Haha! Ate Macs for dinner (damn I feel so fat)
Came home (finally!) and watched Mr and Mrs Smith.
Sigh, yeah.
Omg Topshop has gorgeous heels!
But of course my mum wouldn't let me buy any.
Damn. If they have something in white,
I'll buy it to go with my confirmation dress,
WHICH I am still hunting for. Lol!
haha. I'm forming a band!
With Liana and Geraldine.
We're called Tomato Jam!
Haha! Damn exciting.
Oh Yes! had Survival Camp briefing.
My group's called Dark Knight.
Lol, at least its better than Madagascar,
imagine trying to do reporting!
Lol! I got Jason sir as the group IC again!
He was my IC for last year's ATC and NCOPC
and he just tested my group for SSGT promo. Lol!
So weird. Anyway. I'm going to PERM my hair during the hols.
Lol! I wanna see what I look like in curls.
loose curls lah. Natural a bit.
Haha, it'll be damn fun.
I wanna go to the beach.
I wanna go bowling.
I wanna go swimming.
OH YAH! I ALMOST forgot.
Haha, my cam is being reincarnated soon!
My dad showed me this gorgeous Canon cam today.
Its white, and cost $299. He said I can get it:D
Haha. Damn happy. It's so cute.
I miss taking photos. :D
Lol. What else to post.
OH YEAH. I'm thinking of dropping to combine science.
It may be a good idea.
Cos I dunno if I can really ace pure chem and phy for 'O's.
I'm not really very brilliant.
I have to work immensely hard to even get a B.
Which I have yet to even get.
My chinese. Is. Dying.
It's getting worse and I don't know why.
Damn, that's one thing I can't drop.
Oh well. I think I need to consult my therapist.
who happens to be my fellow band member as well:D
I need help with, emotional problems.
Thanks Amanda for buying me
those damn gorgeous flip-flops from Billabong!:D
(I managed to change the size btw:D) Haha. Yeah.
I went shopping today!
I guess its been a rather crazzzyyy day.
I woke up at 10am. No no, GERALDINE woke me up at 10am.
Lol, she called me.
I went to trim my hair at Thomson Plaza around 12.30pm.
Took my IC photo straight afterwards.
Ate lunch at Sakae Sushi.
Sent my sis for her piano lesson and changed the size of the flip-flops.
Went to Marina Square to shop :D
Bought a top from Zara and a top from Fox.
Haha! Ate Macs for dinner (damn I feel so fat)
Came home (finally!) and watched Mr and Mrs Smith.
Sigh, yeah.
Omg Topshop has gorgeous heels!
But of course my mum wouldn't let me buy any.
Damn. If they have something in white,
I'll buy it to go with my confirmation dress,
WHICH I am still hunting for. Lol!
haha. I'm forming a band!
With Liana and Geraldine.
We're called Tomato Jam!
Haha! Damn exciting.
Oh Yes! had Survival Camp briefing.
My group's called Dark Knight.
Lol, at least its better than Madagascar,
imagine trying to do reporting!
Lol! I got Jason sir as the group IC again!
He was my IC for last year's ATC and NCOPC
and he just tested my group for SSGT promo. Lol!
So weird. Anyway. I'm going to PERM my hair during the hols.
Lol! I wanna see what I look like in curls.
loose curls lah. Natural a bit.
Haha, it'll be damn fun.
I wanna go to the beach.
I wanna go bowling.
I wanna go swimming.
OH YAH! I ALMOST forgot.
Haha, my cam is being reincarnated soon!
My dad showed me this gorgeous Canon cam today.
Its white, and cost $299. He said I can get it:D
Haha. Damn happy. It's so cute.
I miss taking photos. :D
Lol. What else to post.
OH YEAH. I'm thinking of dropping to combine science.
It may be a good idea.
Cos I dunno if I can really ace pure chem and phy for 'O's.
I'm not really very brilliant.
I have to work immensely hard to even get a B.
Which I have yet to even get.
My chinese. Is. Dying.
It's getting worse and I don't know why.
Damn, that's one thing I can't drop.
Oh well. I think I need to consult my therapist.
who happens to be my fellow band member as well:D
I need help with, emotional problems.
Labels: life
Setback Thursday, October 16, 2008 , 11:03:00 PM ↑
It's getting worse everyday.
It's emotionally tiring.
I can't talk about it, I really can't.
I don't know what to do.
I prayed about it.
I'm still waiting for an answer.
I'm gonna write something.
It's emotionally tiring.
I can't talk about it, I really can't.
I don't know what to do.
I prayed about it.
I'm still waiting for an answer.
I'm gonna write something.
Labels: life
A vicious cycle. I'll never be happy. Tuesday, October 14, 2008 , 11:45:00 PM ↑
Went to watch House Bunny today :D
OMG. Damn hilarious.
I wanna watch again, like now.
Anyway, I bought a Straw Fedora
Haha. Geraldine's influence, well not influence.
Apparently I'm following the trend that she set.
Lol, I don't mind, I love it.
OK, on a lower note.
I'm devastated about something.
I don't wanna blog about it.
I'm gonna start some damned rant.
And it wouldn't make a difference in the world.
You know, I think parents are selfish.
They want the best for their kids, yeah right,
So that they can feel good.
Honestly, if I was ment to get some serious disease,
or die, it'll happen, no matter
WHERE I AM IN THE WORLD.
They just don't get that.
Seriously, is dying that bad?
Then why does everyone say "he's gone to a better place"
Well, damn me but I THOUGHT
that means heaven's better than earth?
I mean everyone knows that.
I never said I was going to heaven though.
Probably purgatory, I don't think I'm good enough for heaven.
I don't understand my faith well enough.
Argh. No ranting. I gotta stop.
Or it'll be the cue for my tears.
OMG. Damn hilarious.
I wanna watch again, like now.
Anyway, I bought a Straw Fedora
Haha. Geraldine's influence, well not influence.
Apparently I'm following the trend that she set.
Lol, I don't mind, I love it.
OK, on a lower note.
I'm devastated about something.
I don't wanna blog about it.
I'm gonna start some damned rant.
And it wouldn't make a difference in the world.
You know, I think parents are selfish.
They want the best for their kids, yeah right,
So that they can feel good.
Honestly, if I was ment to get some serious disease,
or die, it'll happen, no matter
WHERE I AM IN THE WORLD.
They just don't get that.
Seriously, is dying that bad?
Then why does everyone say "he's gone to a better place"
Well, damn me but I THOUGHT
that means heaven's better than earth?
I mean everyone knows that.
I never said I was going to heaven though.
Probably purgatory, I don't think I'm good enough for heaven.
I don't understand my faith well enough.
Argh. No ranting. I gotta stop.
Or it'll be the cue for my tears.
Labels: life
Progressions Monday, October 13, 2008 , 12:05:00 AM ↑
I'm at the recovering stage now.
With, unfortunately, a sprained ankle.
Don't ask, I don't know how either.
I'm happy about one thing though,
I LOST WEIGHT :D
Quite majorly I think,
since I can feel my jeans significantly looser.
Lol. Yeah. My stomach capacity has shrunk too.
BUT I can eat everything now. Phew.
I was on the way to withering away to nothing.
Lol. Anyway, No school for me until wednesday :D
Hmmm, I wonder if my school skirt is loose?
Lol. Anyway, I'm dead bored at home, I wanna get out.
Unfortunately, the parents aren't as keen.
Oh well.
I'll have to work for it,
especially tomorrow! :D
With, unfortunately, a sprained ankle.
Don't ask, I don't know how either.
I'm happy about one thing though,
I LOST WEIGHT :D
Quite majorly I think,
since I can feel my jeans significantly looser.
Lol. Yeah. My stomach capacity has shrunk too.
BUT I can eat everything now. Phew.
I was on the way to withering away to nothing.
Lol. Anyway, No school for me until wednesday :D
Hmmm, I wonder if my school skirt is loose?
Lol. Anyway, I'm dead bored at home, I wanna get out.
Unfortunately, the parents aren't as keen.
Oh well.
I'll have to work for it,
especially tomorrow! :D
Labels: life
More torture. Tuesday, October 7, 2008 , 11:34:00 PM ↑
My mouth still hurts.
Argh.
BUT, I had visitors today! :D
The first people my age I've seen in like 5 days.
haha, Glen and Justin came over.
Yeah, it was quite funny.
They're like the only people that can come over
while exams are still on cos they only live about 50m away.
Lol. Yeah, quite fun.
Made me damn happy!
Haha, cos the only places I've gone to are the clinic and Mt. Alvernia.
Talk about sian. Haha. May have more visitors tomorrow :D
Haha. Superrr happy.
Omg. My mouth really, seriously, hurts.
I gotta sleep this off.
And the worst thing is this.
I've begun to really want to eat certain things.
I'm gonna start a list,
1.Swedish Meatballs. You know, the kind from Ikea.
2.Shepherds Pie. One of my mum's specialties.
But you know right now, I'd eat anything.
I haven't eaten proper food for 5 days!
Argh.
BUT, I had visitors today! :D
The first people my age I've seen in like 5 days.
haha, Glen and Justin came over.
Yeah, it was quite funny.
They're like the only people that can come over
while exams are still on cos they only live about 50m away.
Lol. Yeah, quite fun.
Made me damn happy!
Haha, cos the only places I've gone to are the clinic and Mt. Alvernia.
Talk about sian. Haha. May have more visitors tomorrow :D
Haha. Superrr happy.
Omg. My mouth really, seriously, hurts.
I gotta sleep this off.
And the worst thing is this.
I've begun to really want to eat certain things.
I'm gonna start a list,
1.Swedish Meatballs. You know, the kind from Ikea.
2.Shepherds Pie. One of my mum's specialties.
But you know right now, I'd eat anything.
I haven't eaten proper food for 5 days!
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belated birthday present. HA. Monday, October 6, 2008 , 8:03:00 PM ↑
I can't do this anymore.
My tongue and my gums hurt so bad that I can't eat.
In the last three days I've eaten as much as I would have in one day.
Seriously. Just milo for breakfast,
Almost nothing for lunch and dinner.
I wonder how I'm still living.
And as long as they continue hurting,
I won't be eating. It's just excruciating pain.
I can't take it. Not even porridge.
AND even drinking has it's limitations.
I have to drink through a straw.
Any other way hurts too.
This really sucks. I'm gonna disappear into nothingness.
Like geez, I know I said I wanted to lose weight,
but I never said I wanted to disappear!
I already feel thinner.
This is really depressing.
My tongue and my gums hurt so bad that I can't eat.
In the last three days I've eaten as much as I would have in one day.
Seriously. Just milo for breakfast,
Almost nothing for lunch and dinner.
I wonder how I'm still living.
And as long as they continue hurting,
I won't be eating. It's just excruciating pain.
I can't take it. Not even porridge.
AND even drinking has it's limitations.
I have to drink through a straw.
Any other way hurts too.
This really sucks. I'm gonna disappear into nothingness.
Like geez, I know I said I wanted to lose weight,
but I never said I wanted to disappear!
I already feel thinner.
This is really depressing.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME Sunday, October 5, 2008 , 11:21:00 PM ↑
My birthday's almost over.
And yes, I do have dengue.
I'm on MC for a week.
I'm missing my last four papers and BTC.
And I have blood tests everyday.
Oh well, still. all the birthday wishes have brightened
up my day so I'd like to thank every one of you, in
no particular order :D
Geraldine
Fred
Amanda
Monique
Joshua
Gabriel
Elizabeth
Andrea Saw
Ashley
Tessa
Tammy
Glen
Andrea Tan
Sam
Pearlyn
Justin
Ivan
Mohita
Nicholas
Jeremy
Amanda (cousin!)
Aditi
Yup. I think that's it.
:D
I can only hope I'll get better.
But one great piece of advice that EVERYONE
should follow is:
Be careful what you wish for :D
And yes, I do have dengue.
I'm on MC for a week.
I'm missing my last four papers and BTC.
And I have blood tests everyday.
Oh well, still. all the birthday wishes have brightened
up my day so I'd like to thank every one of you, in
no particular order :D
Geraldine
Fred
Amanda
Monique
Joshua
Gabriel
Elizabeth
Andrea Saw
Ashley
Tessa
Tammy
Glen
Andrea Tan
Sam
Pearlyn
Justin
Ivan
Mohita
Nicholas
Jeremy
Amanda (cousin!)
Aditi
Yup. I think that's it.
:D
I can only hope I'll get better.
But one great piece of advice that EVERYONE
should follow is:
Be careful what you wish for :D
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