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I did think I didn't, but I do.
And today just made me all confused.
OK. It's either you read my mind or it was coincidence,
but I don't believe in that. I'm freaked out.

Anyway, it's been a long time since this kinda thing.
But not long enough I think, I could do without the headache.
I've got deja vu. It's too familiar,
and I don't want to make the same mistakes I did,
so I'll tread carefully, weigh every step.

I won't bother you, don't stress,
I'll just entangle my own mess,
No use to get everyone all worried,
It's about me after all so I'll be fine,
I've done this once before, so I don't want it to happen again,
Gotta think logically, something I don't do often,
So it'll be a challenge, But i'll be fine,
I always am.

I made a promise to myself, though I'm re-thinking it,
The last time I did a feelings related promise,
I ended up, well, like I am now.
Meaning half unable to be angry.
I promised myself, I wouldn't get sad,
About this kinda thing, if it didn't go well,
But if I really do, I might end up with no feelings at all,

Talk about mind over matter,
I'm living proof, I'm almost fully anti-chicken now,
it hardly took any effort actually,
all I did was tell myself it was bad for me,
Interesting really, I actually feel disgusted if I think about it while I eat it,
sounds like an obsession, don't worry,
I'm not about to get an eating disorder,
Lol. I'm stilling eating pretty much everything else,
Loads of fish. Probably more than in my entire life,

If i was an outsider reading this post,
I would think that, "this person is crazy"
Yeah, I sound deranged or seriously depressed,
but even as I typed that, I found it amusing,
I'm neither nor, unless I don't know it yet,
Which is weird, but I'm weird so who knows,

I decided to blog in this format from now on,
I think it's easier to read. I wonder who actually reads my blog,
Lol, if no one did then I've been talking to myself,
LOL.

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